My name is Audra. I am a wife of 15 years and mom to 5 beautifully amazing children. I strive to live a life for Christ. That doesn't mean I'm perfect and I do still make mistakes just like we all do. I have also been a lost sheep many of times. I was saved at the age of 6 and recommitted my life more times then I care to recall. The real struggles began in the end of my middle school years when boys became a more prominent thought and my desire for academic excellence began to go out the window. I began to let the world and its sinful temptations get the best of me for awhile. Even when I began going back to church during high school I was not fully committed to Christ. I left the church for about 6 months and came back again to be shunned for getting pregnant while not married and still in school. I was however, engaged to the man (who by the way...is still my husband), but was told I was not a good example and others were told to stay clear of me. I spent much of my early adult years in a back and forth motion with my relationship with God. I would stay committed and focused for a year or so and then loss my way again. Unfortunately I never had someone to check in on me or guide me back usually. I would stay in the world until I hit some form of bottom in some portion of my life or until I had done so many things that I knew were not right in the eye of the Lord. I had feared God all my life and even more feared the idea of being judged for all the things I have done in my life. In December 2013 I had a moment that changed everything. I was in a grocery store parking lot and frustrated with watching how people acted throughout the store and in the parking lot and all I could think was I'm ready to go home Lord. I had never in my life wanted to be out of this world, that is when I knew God had changed in my heart. I wanted not a mediocre relationship with God, but the full love for God relationship that I had never actually experienced. This past year I have grown more in my relationship with Christ then I have in the many years before combined. I learned to give my life over and let His will be mine. I also finally realized that it doesn't matter how many times I have gone back and forth or what my sins were God still loves me and forgives me. For many years I felt that I could not be forgiven for the things that I have done, but this year I realized what it truly meant to be a child of God. My desire for this year is to continue to grow even deeper in love with Christ and give him every bit of control in my life. I want to live for no one else but Him. I know there is plenty more to share but to explain it all would be writing a novel. I'm sure more will be revealed as I continue in my blogs so keep reading and I'm sure you will see why I am proud to call myself a Woman for God.